11-25-2020, 08:51 AM
(11-24-2020, 11:32 PM)Baggie_Nick Wrote: Suffered from depression since I was sixteen culminating in a nervous breakdown in my thirtees.
Medication helped but nowadays I just ride the storm. Some days I feel okay and some days I feel good but some days I feel just fucking woeful to be honest. You have to come to terms with it and that sounds hard but it's true. There's a graphic novel that I read a while ago about The Black Dog and a man who learns to embrace, quite literally, this caracature which represents his depression and anxiety. By the way, depression and anxiety are so different. For me anyway. For me it's acceptance and sometimes not trying to fight it - what's the point? Sometimes I can't win and sometimes I'll use all my energy for that day just to feel 'okay'. To accept you have the condition and accept it's part of you is a huge step forward, or it was for me at least.
Focus is King and distraction also. Find something you enjoy doing and do it and enjoy it. Immerse yourself. And talk to people, obviously, but talk to people who understand you and if they don't or don't want to then quickly move on. Hobbies are good and exercise is better but don't become completely obsessed as that, for me, is part of the problem.
A day-by-day for me. I enjoy the normal stuff. Lockdown has been fine as it's given me time away to refocus and discover new interests. It's daft but when I open my eyes in the morning I know what they day's going to be like. Thankfully, they're okay at the moment but it's subject to change at a moment's notice.
Stay safe everyone. And please do talk if you need help. I am here, and understanding.
Fair play for being so open.